Week II Reflection

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1qCAdSziLGiPquZ-50-OU9sNg-bPmqm0RQ7b5mBgdfAc/edit?usp=sharing

Abba Ramsay

Senior Project

15 May 2022

Week Two Reflection

My second week of senior project was difficult. I started off strong but by the end of the week I found it hard to focus on art and writing. I had the musical which was incredibly exhausting, and took most of my time but on top of that I received terrible news. The death of a loved one is already hard to handle especially when you're forced to focus on ten other things. I've always been an emotional person which usually fuels my art but with this it's completely different. It feels like my hands are no longer able to hold a pencil, when I try to touch the tip of the pen to the paper all I can produce is tears. I forced myself to work as much as I could to get my hours, but it didn't feel like my best work and it became incredibly frustrating. All I want to do is produce work I am proud of. It feels like I've been defeated. I know that my grandfather would have wanted me to keep moving forward but I can't help but feel stuck. I feel stuck in my grandfather's house sipping a plastic cup full of lemonade and listening to his many stories. Despite how hard it has been to work this week I found the time and pushed through just like my grandfather would have wanted. I completed a longer poem that I am proud of and it helped me realize that I still have the ability to create despite how hard of a time I'm going through. I like to think that he will be with me when I'm showing people what I created, and he will be proud. I know that he didn't get to see much of my art of writing and he barely even knew I was an artist, but I know he would be proud. All I wanted was to make him proud. 

I faced many challenges this week but I know that I can overcome them and create pieces that are meaningful. I will use art as a distraction and finish knowing I did the best I could.